Letter to Future Self by a 15 Year Old

High school so far for me has gone by way too fast than it should have been. It has had both its ups and downs. I wonder now about high school life and how it would be for the next two years. A lot of things have changed. Whatever I have dealt in high school, whether good or bad, has made me a better and more mature person right now. And I know this is not it yet. There are more things to learn in life, but whatever high school has taught me so far would never be forgotten. I don’t think that I would be ever overloaded with academic work, as I am not taking very many advanced placements or honors classes. The thing that would affect is the little things. For example, managing friends and school together, time limits, making time for other things. I believe that high school is probably the hardest stage of your life, not because of academics and little things like that. Highschool is the hardest stage because people undergo a lot of physical and mental changes right now. People never think about what they say or say what they think. Every individual is confusing in his or her way. It is hard to deal with other people’s emotions and mood swings while you are trying A’s and 100% in your AP and honors class.

My goal for high school and after is to be a better person, and I want to learn and keep learning from life. After high school, I want to pursue art, along with the philosophy of psychology. I will somehow take the right amount of courses to be a psychiatrist, a child psychiatrist. I don’t have very many close friends in school. It is sad now that I think that the people I hang around with every day during lunch know nothing about it as if there is no depth in our friendships. And the best friend I have whom I thought we would be friends there has ben only drama. My best memory of high school so far was probably all the memories I spent with my best friend, like the basketball games we have been through, and everyday fun that had happened. Little nicknames we had for each other that I still remember were… I had great times with my friend, and I cherish all the moments we shared. I try to look into our friendship and try to look for what I learn from it, but I guess that doesn’t help me forget it. Although my life is way beyond complicated right now, I hope and will try to do very well academically and do well on my finals and get my grade up. I can not sacrifice my grades for someone who lives in my past and not my present.

-Deepasha